Am I cRaZy?!?

I’ve been training for about 19 weeks now for my first half marathon this Saturday, it just ‘so happens’ that it’s also on my 42nd birthday.  I keep going through varying emotions, ecstatic to pure dread – here’s an idea of what my inner monologue sounds like: “Oh my gosh! I can’t believe it’s finally here, I’m so excited!!!”, to various degrees of, “What the heck was I thinking!?! I paid money to try and run 13.1 miles for my birthday, there’s no way I can do this!”.

I’m one of those people who when I decide to do something, I research the heck out of it – whether it’s books, blogs, or articles, I’m going to get my hands on everything and anything that relates to it.  Needless to say, I’ve consumed enough information that I feel I have a good idea on what to expect – but I’m such an introvert (unless I’ve known you long enough, than you probably can’t get me to shut up) I won’t ask someone I don’t know the questions I’m dying to ask.  I’ve literally got a list of questions that I want to ask my church’s running group, but I don’t know anyone there, since I’m afraid to be ignored/rejected/or just thought of as the annoying goofball that I know myself to be (Note: hopefully when I do finish my audio book this Saturday, that perception will change).

Why am I spilling all this on my blog, well because it’s part of who I am.  I’ve really fallen in love with running, it’s something I have control of – I like that I can set a goal, like running ‘x’ amount of distance and then the feeling of accomplishment when I achieve a new PR (personal record, in either distance or time).  Of course the insatiable amount of hunger when training and being able to eat almost anything because of the crazy amount of calories I’ve been burning (I crave Chick-fil-a Spicy Chicken Sandwich with Pepper Jack Cheese OR a double cheeseburger with bacon – I wish we had In-N-Out here!) and not to mention the weight I’ve been losing. ***Disclaimer, I’m also a Plexus Ambassador and even though I’ve been running and dieting for awhile, I honestly didn’t lose any weight until I added Plexus supplements! As a matter of fact this past week I’ve ran the least amount due to my ‘Taper’ (that’s when we reduce our mileage before our race, to help our bodies be in optimal condition for the race) and I’ve lost almost a pound every other day!!

I’ve read most runners, like to run with no music, just them and nature – but I’ve tried it and I don’t do too well with that approach.  I’ve also tried jamming out to different playlists and that doesn’t really work for me either.  Instead, I’ve found that sermon podcasts and audio books are the key to my success!  Since I volunteer with our children’s ministry on Wednesday nights, I usually listen to the sermon from that night on my Thursday short runs (I never in a million years would have imagined I would consider a 5 mile run my ‘short’ run), Tuesday’s I have my other short run and try to listen to Elevation Church’s sermon from Sunday.  Then on Saturdays since my long runs (I got up to 10 miles – that’s pretty awesome if I do say so myself) would take almost 2 hours, I would listen to audio books.  So far I’ve finished Francis Chan’s ‘Crazy Love’(life changing book for me) and I’ll finish Steven Furtick’s ‘Crash the Chatterbox’ this Saturday for my race.  On a side note, I can’t tell you how many times during my Long Runs, I would pause the book and just lift my hands and worship God – I know people would pass me wondering what I was doing, but if they were close enough, they’d usually hear a lot of, ‘Thank you Jesus’…which just made me realize how cool it would be if one of the photographs from my race, would be from one of those moments!

Well that’s it, this race has consumed such a huge portion of my life, it’s changed me from the inside out.  I’ve grown closer to God in the past few months than I feel I have in the past couple of years – I have a hunger to be more of who God wants me to be, than who I thought I needed to be.  I see my walk with Christ differently, I can’t say I feel more humble, because that in itself makes me feel prideful and that’s not at all how I see me.  I am proud of what I’ve accomplished in my training, but so much more aware of just how desperately I need God and how much I’ve yet to do for the Kingdom of God.  With all that said, anyone who knows me, knows I’m a prayer warrior and as such, I’d like to ask for prayers for this race – I need God’s peace, comfort, endurance, strength, and please no injuries, accidents or wounds!  Also, a huge shout out to my amazing husband and sons – I couldn’t have trained without them, they’ve been amazing encouragers, always telling me how proud they are of me and listening to me when I go on and on and on about this race and my last run – I am truly blessed!

God will renew our strength!
God will renew our strength!

**Want to know where to find the books I mentioned, click on the links below and it will benefit me if you decide to purchase, thanks in advance and God Bless!

Follow my run LIVE on this link – Bib 5023 Dawn Phythian, in The Woodlands Half-Marathon